HELP...

Okay so it is about that time... I have started thinking about WELCOME HOME SIGNS and I am having a very hard time deciding on what I want to say! Soooo, I thought I would put them out there and get some opinions on them... Let me know what you think!!!

1.) from M... I've Waited My Whole Life to Meet You Welcome Home Daddy

2.) from N... (this would be in check list form and its something J promised him before he left, Tent - check, Sleeping Bag - check, Marshmallows - check, DADDY - (big) check

3.) from me a couple of choices... You went over to kick some... Now let's go home and get some!!! or Today I get to get all dolled sit nervously and wait to give my HERO his welcome home KISS!!! or Always under the same stars, Finally under the same roof!!!

Please let me know what you think!!! Thank you!

Just so you know...

Okay, so here are some things that have been going on in our house...

M finally passed her bilirubin test!!! Her level is now .8 and it has only taken us all of her 14 weeks of life and about five heel sticks and two blood draws to get there!!!

She is growing so fast that I cant believe my eyes! She is now rolling over every time I put her on her stomach for "tummy time"!!! She has a little laugh going and smiles at me all the time! I cant wait for her daddy to meet her! I think it is funny that with my first I worried (and by that I mean J came home to find me in tears) about him not meeting any of the milestones he was supposed to, but with M, I worry but its different... I think partly b/c I am not sure we are going to have anymore so I just want to savor all the baby I can and also I want J to be here to enjoy the milestones with me!

I have been a very bad wife and been doing some retail therapy with my honey's hard earned money!!! Got a new camera and lens and bag to go with it!!! Bought some new bedding (we have had the same quilt on our bed since we got married and I am tired of the brown/darkness in my room)!!! We of coarse discussed all these purchases and I got the green light but I still feel a little guilty!

The countdown is officially on and I am about to pull my hair out!!! N is driving me crazy with the whining and I don't know what to do about it b/c when he whines it is only about "daaaddy"!!!

Just Breathe... right!?!

Sewing

So, after I kept a friends 6 month old the other day I decided that since I will soon have a little one learning how to sit up that I would like some floor pillows! I thought I can make those no need to go on a wild goose chase to find what I am looking for!!! So headed to the fabric store and got all the supplies I needed and I wanted to make sure I could remove the covers for washing, so I bought some zippers... my last attempt at a zipper was a disaster and I was very nervous!

I watched a video on the internet and the lady explained it very simply and with visual instructions (HUGE help)!!! And here are the finished products....

I also realized that I cant sew a straight line to save my life... I dont have the patience for it! I get to excited about the finished product and cant wait to see it!!! But luckily semi straight lines work for a pillow case!!!

Viewer Discretion Advised...

So, I decided to go to my favorite store this morning b/c one, I just wanted to get out of the house and two, I promised N we would go "bye bye" last night when I had to go to a meeting without him and finally to get a few last minute items for homecoming... WOOT! Anyway, we just got in and walking down the aisle and I ran into a new friend whose hubby is with Josh and we chat for a bit and then head in our different directions! Like I said I had to get a few last minute items, well one of those items are condoms, yes I said it and I am about the same shade of red that I was when I picked them up! J and I have been very blessed, God has given us two beautiful babies and like my mom says, he only has to look at me and think baby and poof I'm pregnant... I am not bragging at all just letting you know the reason for the protection! Anyway, I am not sure why they have to put them where the whole entire pharmacy can see what you are trying to get, how are you supposed to choose when all eyes are watching! Especially when you have two peanuts in the cart drawing even more attention! I don't know why I am so embarrassed, I am just doing a little family planning but dang I feel so dirty! So, I grab some and haul ass in the other direction (I also put them out of N's reach b/c that's all I need, him picking them up and asking, "Mommy, what's these?") and finish my shopping... not much some ant killer, a cute pair of shoes, and some other random stuff and head to the check out!!! And who do I get in line behind but my new friend and of coarse I have completely forgot about my "special" item until I start unloading the cart... GREAT!!! So again I am that crazy shade of red and trying to figure out just how I am going to put these on the belt without looking like an idiot! So I just wait until she is done and luckily she says goodbye and heads toward the door and doesn't stick around to chat, PHEW!!! Okay, okay I know I am a grown ass woman and should be able to buy this stuff without such drama, but I just met her!!! I even feel like the cashier is judging me... maybe I am just too sensitive but it is what it is!!!

Leavin on a jet plane...

Before I start this let me first tell you that I HATE flying, I am not a nut and go screaming down the aisle before take off, I just get really nervous and I dont think I breathe the entire time... but I hate it and when I add my two peanuts to the mix its worse!

So, last week we went to visit the fam in D-town and started our journey at about 345 am! Awesome!!! I think I am just going to make a list of our exciting adventure from J-Vegas to D and back... The middle part (not traveling part) was awesome, I got to sleep in and rest and just have some quality family time...

1. Picture me with two peanuts in tow and all the things needed for travel... car seat, stroller, diaper bag, breast pump, toy bag for N (which got shipped home), M strapped on the front of me and N walking like a big boy and of coarse I cant forget Mickey Mouse and Cami blanket! N's toy bag was so heavy that when he went to walk up the ramp on our first plane, he fell backwards... that's why it got shipped home!!!

2. Got to Atlanta (and I will never fly through there again), ran from B to D or something like that, got some breakfast, went and sat down to cram it down before our next flight, took M out of the wrap to change her and decided I would wait to feed her on the plane (BIG mistake)!!! Put her back in the wrap... my tiny little girl who is so laid back it is unbelievable found her lungs, found our seats in the back of the plane and sat down (not quite that fast b/c I have to put N car seat in and then stow our bags and then get N in his seat, not until after he has already pushed all the buttons including the call light for the flight attendant) So I try to feed M and she is pissed ( I later find out that she doesn't like to be covered up to eat, especially when we are burning up)!!! Push back from the gate and then NOTHING, we sit on the runway for about 45 minutes and right as we are beginning to take off, N starts doing the pee pee dance in his seat!!! Luckily the flight attendant is sitting next to me and she took him... phew!!! During this time I still have not gotten M to eat but she did fall asleep! We are in the air for maybe 25 min and N has to pee again... SERIOUSLY!!! So I get up with my sleeping baby and take him, then M wakes up and I try to feed her again (nothing), so I flag down the flight attendant and tell her that I am going to go to the bathroom (ewww) and try to feed her could she please watch N (lucky me we had an awesome flight attendant). Finally get M to eat (its been almost 6 hrs) and we head back to our seats! Its about to get good right, wrong! M takes the BIGGEST poop of her tiny little life right on the plane and it goes all the way up her back, and of coarse there is no place to change a baby on a plane... ahhhhh!!! I lay her in my seat and now she really starts wailing... got her cleaned up and by that time we got to Dallas!!! *sigh*

3. Middle Part: like I said was great!!! I love spending time with my family and while it was crazy running around we had a good time! My parents have the best porch ever and it is quite possibly the best place on earth to sit and have a beer and just catch up!!! (No I didnt drink, breast feeding)

4. Time to come home and we got delayed the whole way home, Dallas sat on the runway for about 45 minutes, got to Atlanta and the plane was late then got on and sat on the runway for 2, yes I said 2 hours... fun with two peanuts!!! M wouldn't eat again and this time I was in trouble b/c she started and then figured out that she was covered up and so I was shooting milk, Needless to say I was lucky that I was wearing the wrap over my shirts b/c the whole left side was soaking wet... We had been chasing this storm all the way and for a person who hates to fly going through a storm was GREAT!!! Lucky for me I have great friends who changed plans and made accommodations for us!!!

my biggest fear, someone else's reality

My words just wont come for this post... I will explain when I can!

I am ready for my love to be home safe in my arms, holding his new baby girl, and getting ready for the camping trip he promised N!

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Everything is fine I am sorry to have worried anyone, just a rough day and I miss J. I read another persons blog and it made my heart ache for a new mom and marine wife who lost her marine... J is in every breath I take and I cannot imagine what she is going through right now...

Peeing on trees

So, this is my three year old and this is his favorite thing to do right now... pee on trees! He asks me to do it and I say no but he will sneak it in there. We could be standing on our front porch and he would rather run across the yard to one of the big pine trees just to pee on it! His daddy would be so proud!!! He does it all over the place, its like he is marking his territory, making sure all the other kids know that he has been there! Today, our little neighbor friend (she is about a year older than him) walked over with her hands on her hip shaking her head and told him that we always pee inside!!! It was perfect!!! I was hoping maybe if he thought she didn't approve that he would be embarrassed enough to maybe use a toilet but that probably wont happen, but I guess we will just have to wait and see!!! And if you are thinking to yourself why I dont stop him and make him go inside... I try!!! But he is so quick by the time I realize what he is doing, he is mid stream and what am I supposed to do???